A Degree of Inner Turbulence

(Outro of) Lady Macbeth / Serotonin Blues

"Things have changed, people changed.
Feels like there's so much a weight on every word.
Conversations are heavy, too heavy.
We're trying so hard, for so long and it just exhausts me. Terrified.
There's a line that keeps repeating in my head over and over again:
why does this doesn't change?"

The past two weeks made me think about things I never delved into. The reasons nor the triggers cannot be explained, but I think it's some kind of the depression involved with the weather, strike in the university and just a lot of different stuff that happened to me or to friends of mine that shaken me so much.

A lot of questions have been raised - not all of them were resolved. Not all of them CAN be resolved, in the current reasonable time frame at least.

The only thing I can say is that it's so strange how things are so much entwined one with another; sometimes so entwined it makes me wonder if there's an entity that arranges all this things to happen together - maybe for us to learn more about ourselves, maybe for its own sick humour.

But the thing that I've noticed the most, is that everything is balanced - you can't win it all and you can't lose it all. So we all need to see one's cup as half full and help friends when they see their cup as half empty. That's the true meaning of life.